Festive Week | How I spend my Christmas

how i spend christmasI’m gonna be super honest in this post. While for a lot of people, Christmas is the best time of year to celebrate many things with their loved ones. Heres how I spend my Christmas.

how i spend christmasDon’t get me wrong I have always loved this time of year, nothing will stop me changing my mind however there’s some aspects I struggle with personally. While a lot of people are going out buying for their friends and family, there’s one person I cannot spend Christmas with. On Christmas eve I used to love wearing a new set of Pj’s after a hot bath with a hot chocolate. I was always allowed to open just one present! I’d always go for a gift that felt like a DVD so I could watch it the night before. This was when I little, it’sย different now.

On Christmas eve, for me it’s like any other day. I’m usually working like a lot of people, I go home get sorted and visit my brothers resting place with family. Then, if I feel like it I go for a couple of drinks with my friends wearing Christmas jumpers, its kind ofย a tradition now.

how i spend christmasChristmas day will never be the same for me. The excitement has gone, not just because I’m older but because I have to open my presents, without the presence of my brother. The guilt of him not being here on this festive day feels strange. I know a lot of people feel the same this day, we have all lost loved ones and while we try to have a good time, we always miss them on this special day. After unwrapping my presents we always visit his place a couple of times that day then go home and relax. It kinda is like a normal day for me once I’ve opened my presents.

I’ve never been this honest on a post about my personal life, so bare with me! I hope that some readers will relate to me on this and if not well I’ve opened up to someone – that’s good enough for me. While we all enjoy our Christmas, lets all remember the angels who are no longer with us.

Thanks for reading and I hope you all have enjoyed festive week!

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  1. 18 December 2015 / 4:34 pm

    Aww Beth I’m so sorry to hear that you lost your brother, this post brought a tear to my eyes. I’ve always loved Christmas but like you I always miss loved ones that have passed away. This year our Christmas is extra special because it is most likely to be my mum & Grandma’s last Christmas as they have both recently been diagnosed with cancer. I too have suffered from very bad health this year & am currently recovering from major back surgery. I have major mobility issues & have to use crutches and a wheelchair and this could be the case for a long time. Even though it’s fair to say it’s been a very traumatic year for us, it has made me appreciate my family & I’m trying to cherish every moment with them. It’s also made me appreciate how lucky I was when I was able to walk properly & I hope to make a full recovery at some point.
    Thankyou for sharing your story, Beth and I hope it has been cathartic. I really wish you a very merry Christmas and a happy new year! I understand that it’s sometimes hard to be totally happy under the circumstances but just remember that your brother would want you and all of your family to be happy & live life to the full for his sake.
    Hugs & best wishes
    Kate x http://www.kateiscoveting.wordpress.com

    • 18 December 2015 / 4:41 pm

      Aw Kate this so lovely! You’ve worded it so nice. I’m so sorry to hear the news of your mum and Grandma, fingers crossed for them. And also for your health, a new year and hopefully a lot of recovery! Thank you so much for this comment. Merry christmas xxx

      • 18 December 2015 / 5:59 pm

        Thankyou very much Beth! Yes I’m hoping a new year will be a fresh start for us & hopefully a clean bill of health too! I’m glad you liked my comment. I know your Christmas will never be the same without your brother but I really do hope you find a way to have a happy Christmas with your family. Merry Christmas and a happy new year!
        Kate xxx http://www.kateiscoveting.wordpress.com

        • 18 December 2015 / 6:29 pm

          I really do hope so for you! Thank you that means so much. And to you, best wishes xxx

  2. 18 December 2015 / 7:34 pm

    Ah so sorry to read this. I understand it’s not the same ๐Ÿ™ Thinking of you xx

  3. 18 December 2015 / 10:17 pm

    Aw sweetie I am so so sorry to hear about your brother … I really hope you find some way of having a happier Christmas with your family .. I know how hard it can be to be normal when someone you love so much is not there … you feel almost guilty if you have a good time. But it is OK sweetie and I am so sure your brother would have wanted you to have the happiest time ever ๐Ÿ™‚

    Saira xo

    • 19 December 2015 / 1:48 pm

      Yeah your so right! Thank you so much, means a lot ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

  4. 19 December 2015 / 3:31 am

    ‘Tis the season to be festive. ๐Ÿ™‚
    Still have another week to enjoy the season.

    Have a wonderful weekend!

  5. 19 December 2015 / 6:06 pm

    I’m really sorry to hear this Bethany. When you’ve gone through something like that, it’s always harder to enjoy things like christmas xx

  6. 21 December 2015 / 11:10 am

    A strong hug and a big kiss from me x

  7. 21 December 2015 / 1:40 pm

    Sounds like you are staying really strong, and I’m sure your brother is there with you every day, not just at Christmas. Such an honest post, thinking of you at this time of year xxx

    • 21 December 2015 / 3:09 pm

      Aw thanks Beth that’s so lovely! And you too hun xxx

  8. 21 May 2016 / 1:02 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear that you lost your brother. Christmas much be such a difficult time for you and your family. I really admire how honest you were in this post, it takes a lot to be so upfront and lay everything out on the table. Sending loads of love <3 xxx

    • 22 May 2016 / 6:49 pm

      It really is! Aww thank you that’s exactly what I wanted to do, thanks lovely xxx

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