I’m gonna be super honest in this post. While for a lot of people, Christmas is the best time of year to celebrate many things with their loved ones. Heres how I spend my Christmas.
Don’t get me wrong I have always loved this time of year, nothing will stop me changing my mind however there’s some aspects I struggle with personally. While a lot of people are going out buying for their friends and family, there’s one person I cannot spend Christmas with. On Christmas eve I used to love wearing a new set of Pj’s after a hot bath with a hot chocolate. I was always allowed to open just one present! I’d always go for a gift that felt like a DVD so I could watch it the night before. This was when I little, it’s different now.
On Christmas eve, for me it’s like any other day. I’m usually working like a lot of people, I go home get sorted and visit my brothers resting place with family. Then, if I feel like it I go for a couple of drinks with my friends wearing Christmas jumpers, its kind of a tradition now.
Christmas day will never be the same for me. The excitement has gone, not just because I’m older but because I have to open my presents, without the presence of my brother. The guilt of him not being here on this festive day feels strange. I know a lot of people feel the same this day, we have all lost loved ones and while we try to have a good time, we always miss them on this special day. After unwrapping my presents we always visit his place a couple of times that day then go home and relax. It kinda is like a normal day for me once I’ve opened my presents.
I’ve never been this honest on a post about my personal life, so bare with me! I hope that some readers will relate to me on this and if not well I’ve opened up to someone – that’s good enough for me. While we all enjoy our Christmas, lets all remember the angels who are no longer with us.
Thanks for reading and I hope you all have enjoyed festive week!